“Don’t judge the book by its cover.”
Of course we are all familiar with this quotation BUT not
all of us are applying this in real life. For my first blog I am going to tell
you ‘what they think about me?’, ‘how I deal with it?’ and ‘who I really am,
for the people who truly knows me, like my friends.
Others use to describe me as a brat, snob, anti-social,
boring, until I end up being a loner. Way back in high school, my classmates
always pissing me like “Oh! She’s happy as a clam,” “She’s a wallflower,” “Anyway
don’t mind her because she’s too boring,” “She’s OK sitting there, all alone in
that sad dark corner.
I know for others it may look rude but that’s life so I
accepted it. Not until I became a SHADOW, “their” shadow. I end up following
their rules, commands, and directions; as if I’m selfless, always available;
like I don’t have my own life and free will. All I know is that they give me a
friend, just ‘one’ friend named ‘SILENCE’.
I did all of that just to cope up with their world. I want
to be a part of it. I want to be one of them. I want to feel that I do belong.
It takes time for me to realize that “I’m not,” that no matter how I try, I
will never be belong because for them “first impressions last.”
Being a shadow is tiresome so I stopped pushing myself to be
one of them. I stay away from them and they stay away from me like nothing
happens. Anyway, I’m just their options when they are bored so no wonder if
they’re not affected with the distance I put between us.
Then, there I found my true friends. Isn’t it ironic that I
found them just right after, I gave up searching? They may not the best in the
world but at least they accept me for who I am. They found me interesting,
sweet, caring, loyal and a humble friend. Far different from what the other’s
first impression.
As they came into my life I realize that I’m not an
anti-social. I just don’t know how to socialize. Not that I can’t speak. I’m
just afraid of their judgment. Not because I don’t talk to a certain group,
that doesn’t mean that I don’t like them. I just don’t want to put myself on
that ‘same situation’, again.
Brat, snob, boring, anti-social; that’s what they think of I
am. But for the persons who truly know me, I’m humble, sweet, loyal, and caring.
It was just being hidden by my friend, ‘silence.’
Humans are like
walking riddles. You don’t have to hurry to know who they are. Take your time
to know the hidden message behind them. And as you do so, learn to respect all
your differences. For we all know that we’re not God, we’re humans and as the
bible said, “Who are we, to judge?”
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